Friday - 11/30/12
I'm awake. The alarm has gone off. I'm sitting here in bed, listening to the rain. I love the sound of the rain, but not today. Today I have to go to travel in it. I don't love that. I love teaching yoga though and this is part of what I do to be able to do that. I'm taking a few moments to focus on and remember the positive and remember how wonderful my life is (and it really is) before I get up and start moving.
It's been awhile since I've taken the bus in the rain. Definitely a while since it's been both cold and raining. I pulled out my boots. I guess I'll take my heavy winter gloves. They look more waterproof. It will be my first day testing out my new Rain jacket. It's lightweight. So I'm going to try wearing it over my sweatshirt jacket. They both have hoods. It should work.
I'm on the way to the bus stop. It's not that bad. It's a steady, heavy misty rain. In the dark it's giving everything an otherworldly quality. I didn't think to pull out rain pants to wear. I'm a little worried that my pants will be soaked by the time I get to the yoga center. I could have at least brought an extra pair. It's all just theory now and planning for the next time It's too late to go back.
Oh no! I was sure I was on time. I just saw the bus pas in front of me though! I'm a full block away from the bus stop. There isn't anything to do except keep going and take the later bus. It's been ages since I've missed the bus! What a day for it to happen too!
At the bus stop. I've got a half hour to wait for the next bus. The bench is covered in rain. I would definitely have soaked pants if I sat down there. There's one little patch of concrete, next to the bench that looks mostly dry. I sit on it to wait.
Sitting here watching the misty rain is nice. This is what we teach in yoga, staying in the moment and enjoying. I can let my mind worry about that last part of the trip that I may have to do on the scooter, I can worry about making it to the yoga center in time, or about how wet I'll get by the time I get there. I can't influence any of those thing right now. Worrying doesn't help. I could have my mind on all of that and not be happy, or I can sit here, in the now, and enjoy the beauty and the peace of this moment. It's lovely!
30.11.12
29.11.12
Thursday - 11/29/30 - a day off
Thursday - 11/29/12
I planned on working on eBay today. Early in the morning I did update quite a few ads. I have a lot to go though. eBay adds features or extra definition fields and it's great because they are responding to what buyers want. It's just frustrating being a seller and having to update all of your listings to include the new information.
I'm helping Richard with the album he's converting to digital. I love that he's taken on this project to do! He's almost to where he can do it all without help, but not quite.
It's dark and rainy outside. No wonder I'm lethargic. It's that kind of day. I decide to give myself time off, sit down and read a book. I'm currently reading "the cat who smelled a rat."
Time to go to bed. I ended up reading two books! I'm dreading having rain on my busy Friday and taking the bus in the rain. It's just part of it though, isn't it? I'm very grateful to have a way to get to the yoga center, a way to be able to teach class. I need to focus on that... How wonderful it is and how grateful I am.
I planned on working on eBay today. Early in the morning I did update quite a few ads. I have a lot to go though. eBay adds features or extra definition fields and it's great because they are responding to what buyers want. It's just frustrating being a seller and having to update all of your listings to include the new information.
I'm helping Richard with the album he's converting to digital. I love that he's taken on this project to do! He's almost to where he can do it all without help, but not quite.
It's dark and rainy outside. No wonder I'm lethargic. It's that kind of day. I decide to give myself time off, sit down and read a book. I'm currently reading "the cat who smelled a rat."
Time to go to bed. I ended up reading two books! I'm dreading having rain on my busy Friday and taking the bus in the rain. It's just part of it though, isn't it? I'm very grateful to have a way to get to the yoga center, a way to be able to teach class. I need to focus on that... How wonderful it is and how grateful I am.
11.11.12
Sunday - 11/11/12
Sunday - 11/11/12
It's easy to tell that I haven't been home much. I was home all day. I worked on my reports for tomorrow, baked bread, made Indian food for lunch, photoed some eBay items, etc...
It's 4:30 now. I need to leave around 5:45 to catch the bus to the yoga center. My inner world is having a tantrum about leaving. I know I'll enjoy class and I know I need to go, but I SO want to stay home! It doesn't help that it's cold and dark outside. My inner world is arguing that I'll stay both safer and healthier if I stay home.
I'm leaving. It's hard to go. I'd love to just stay home, watch a movie and pet the cat. Buster's saying he'd like that too. I think he gets lonesome when I'm gone for so long. I haven't been to class in a few weeks though, and I do like it and want to support it.
Before I left home, I sat down and looked at my calendar. Next weekend I'm declaring a whole weekend at home. I'll stay home from class then. It's not long enough. I really need 3 to 5 days at home, but it's something. Having two days together when I stay home should be awesome!
I'm taking a bus route that I haven't taken before. I got to leave a half hour later and start off with the 62. It's stop is closer than my "normal" one. I'm not looking forward to the trips to and from the bus. It's already dark and cold out.
At the bus stop for the 62. I suddenly realize why I haven't taken this route before. The next bus I take is the 42! The bus I've been trying to avoid! Oh well. It's too late to change routes now. I'll just have to hope it runs more on time on Sundays. I've got a 20 minute wait between the 42 and the 1. Hopefully that will allow enough flex time for the bus to run late and me to still make it to class.
It's easy to tell that I haven't been home much. I was home all day. I worked on my reports for tomorrow, baked bread, made Indian food for lunch, photoed some eBay items, etc...
It's 4:30 now. I need to leave around 5:45 to catch the bus to the yoga center. My inner world is having a tantrum about leaving. I know I'll enjoy class and I know I need to go, but I SO want to stay home! It doesn't help that it's cold and dark outside. My inner world is arguing that I'll stay both safer and healthier if I stay home.
I'm leaving. It's hard to go. I'd love to just stay home, watch a movie and pet the cat. Buster's saying he'd like that too. I think he gets lonesome when I'm gone for so long. I haven't been to class in a few weeks though, and I do like it and want to support it.
Before I left home, I sat down and looked at my calendar. Next weekend I'm declaring a whole weekend at home. I'll stay home from class then. It's not long enough. I really need 3 to 5 days at home, but it's something. Having two days together when I stay home should be awesome!
I'm taking a bus route that I haven't taken before. I got to leave a half hour later and start off with the 62. It's stop is closer than my "normal" one. I'm not looking forward to the trips to and from the bus. It's already dark and cold out.
At the bus stop for the 62. I suddenly realize why I haven't taken this route before. The next bus I take is the 42! The bus I've been trying to avoid! Oh well. It's too late to change routes now. I'll just have to hope it runs more on time on Sundays. I've got a 20 minute wait between the 42 and the 1. Hopefully that will allow enough flex time for the bus to run late and me to still make it to class.
5.11.12
11/05/12 - Monday - New Scooter - New Shoes
11/05/12 - Monday
I'd set the iPod alarm last night so I could wake to music rather than alarm. I forgot to change the time on the iPod though. It's 2:30 and it's going off. An hour before I need to get up. I'm still tired. I get up, shut off the alarm and go back to bed.
I'm sitting semi-crouched in bed. The real alarm did go off. I'm trying to wrap my mind around today. I know I'm taking the early bus this morning. That's all that's managed to sink through my not-quite-awake-yet brain fog. Oops! It's Monday. It has to be Monday. That means there are reports due this morning... And I haven't done them! Well, I'll do as much as I can.
It's almost time to leave and I haven't finished prepping the deposit. I really want to do the deposit today. I don't want to leave the complex for anything tomorrow. I want a whole day at home. I feel like I haven't had that in forever.
It's time to leave. The deposit prep isn't finished. I'm going to have to leave it and go. I throw a few things into my backpack, grab the blinky caution lights I had for the kid's Halloween, fasten them to the outside of the backpack (one on a front strap and one on the back) and take off.
I automatically headed to the closer bus stop. I'm sure I left a few minutes late. I should have headed to the other stop. It's too late to change directions now. I'll just have to hope I make it. I'm using the new scooter with the bigger wheels today. It's first "working" trip. It is faster. I can feel it.
I'm having real trouble with this whole thing today.... This riding the bus, doing without my car thing. I'm tired of it. My place is a mess. It feels like I'm never home to take care of things.
I tell myself I'm doing this to work on paying down debt. It doesn't help that I don't feel like I have been paying down debt lately. I'm not at all sure this is the thing to do. I have to keep reminding myself that this is about putting energy toward that... That I felt called to do it... And that right now it's about finishing. Completing what I started is important, whatever the outcome. For the rest I just have to keep trying and trust.
I think I'm to the bus in plenty of time. I set everything down and wait. I leave the blinky lights turned on to help the bus driver see me in the dark.
I'm on the 43, headed down harbor to catch the 55. Dawn is happening outside. I'm not supposed to be on this bus for dawn! I'm worried somehow I got my travel times mixed up. Oops! I just (once again) realized we had a time change! I guess I'm now on the bus for dawn! Hey! That means I could go to my adopted bus stop! It'll be light by the time I get there! At the other bus stop. The 55 is in front of is. If that bus waits for us, I'll get off to catch the 55 and leave cleaning the bus stop for another day. The 55 heads off, before our bus has stopped. Where ever I am, it's going to be a bit of a wait for the next one. I'm definitely going to my adopted bus stop! Might as well see if there is trash to pick up!
There is trash. Not too much big stuff.. A shoe, a paper bag, some papers. There are a lot of cigarette butts. I pick up a little, throw it in the trash, look to see if the bus is coming, then pick up a little, etc...
After yoga. It's the first time I've made it to the corner in time to catch the bus, get a ride part way to the chiropractors. The funny part is that I can't catch the bus today. My bus pass expires on Wednesday. I've decided to stop at the ralph's grocery here to buy the new one. It's the closest I'll be to a place that sells the passes. I'm proud of myself. I think this is the first time I've specifically bought the pass ahead of time!
I love my new scooter! I wasn't sure about it at first. Now though, I love it! It glides a lot farther on one push and goes a lot easier down a slope! I'm having trouble picking up the breaking. It uses the same braking system, but has a wheelie bar too. I keep stepping on that instead of the brake. I know I'll figure it out! No problem!
I'm also wearing my new tennis shoes, which might be part of the problem. I love the shoes (yay I finally found ones that work for me!), but, trying to feel for where the brake is in the new shoes is harder.
Time to head home. I've decided there's no reason to try and catch the earlier bus. I think the bus I'm waiting for today normally gets there a few minutes before that one. I've resigned myself to not being home till 9. That way I won't be as frustrated when I miss the 460.
A regular sized bus pulls up. It throws me. I almost let it pull off without me. I was sure it wouldn't be a 43 bus, they are always double buses. I guess not always! This could work in my favor! If this bus gets full (packed like sardines, even down the aisle) then they don't have to pick up any more people and we might make it down the road faster!
It's funny. Not as many people are getting on as I normally see at this time. The bus isn't getting over full. They were right to send the small bus. I have no idea how they knew though.
We're at Disneyland in time to catch the 460 I like to catch! It leaves in 1 minute. So, there isn't time to cross the street to the Disneyland stop. I'll go down the street to the far stop and make it there in time. Woo Hoo! I'll be home by 8:30!
I'd set the iPod alarm last night so I could wake to music rather than alarm. I forgot to change the time on the iPod though. It's 2:30 and it's going off. An hour before I need to get up. I'm still tired. I get up, shut off the alarm and go back to bed.
I'm sitting semi-crouched in bed. The real alarm did go off. I'm trying to wrap my mind around today. I know I'm taking the early bus this morning. That's all that's managed to sink through my not-quite-awake-yet brain fog. Oops! It's Monday. It has to be Monday. That means there are reports due this morning... And I haven't done them! Well, I'll do as much as I can.
It's almost time to leave and I haven't finished prepping the deposit. I really want to do the deposit today. I don't want to leave the complex for anything tomorrow. I want a whole day at home. I feel like I haven't had that in forever.
It's time to leave. The deposit prep isn't finished. I'm going to have to leave it and go. I throw a few things into my backpack, grab the blinky caution lights I had for the kid's Halloween, fasten them to the outside of the backpack (one on a front strap and one on the back) and take off.
I automatically headed to the closer bus stop. I'm sure I left a few minutes late. I should have headed to the other stop. It's too late to change directions now. I'll just have to hope I make it. I'm using the new scooter with the bigger wheels today. It's first "working" trip. It is faster. I can feel it.
I'm having real trouble with this whole thing today.... This riding the bus, doing without my car thing. I'm tired of it. My place is a mess. It feels like I'm never home to take care of things.
I tell myself I'm doing this to work on paying down debt. It doesn't help that I don't feel like I have been paying down debt lately. I'm not at all sure this is the thing to do. I have to keep reminding myself that this is about putting energy toward that... That I felt called to do it... And that right now it's about finishing. Completing what I started is important, whatever the outcome. For the rest I just have to keep trying and trust.
I think I'm to the bus in plenty of time. I set everything down and wait. I leave the blinky lights turned on to help the bus driver see me in the dark.
I'm on the 43, headed down harbor to catch the 55. Dawn is happening outside. I'm not supposed to be on this bus for dawn! I'm worried somehow I got my travel times mixed up. Oops! I just (once again) realized we had a time change! I guess I'm now on the bus for dawn! Hey! That means I could go to my adopted bus stop! It'll be light by the time I get there! At the other bus stop. The 55 is in front of is. If that bus waits for us, I'll get off to catch the 55 and leave cleaning the bus stop for another day. The 55 heads off, before our bus has stopped. Where ever I am, it's going to be a bit of a wait for the next one. I'm definitely going to my adopted bus stop! Might as well see if there is trash to pick up!
There is trash. Not too much big stuff.. A shoe, a paper bag, some papers. There are a lot of cigarette butts. I pick up a little, throw it in the trash, look to see if the bus is coming, then pick up a little, etc...
After yoga. It's the first time I've made it to the corner in time to catch the bus, get a ride part way to the chiropractors. The funny part is that I can't catch the bus today. My bus pass expires on Wednesday. I've decided to stop at the ralph's grocery here to buy the new one. It's the closest I'll be to a place that sells the passes. I'm proud of myself. I think this is the first time I've specifically bought the pass ahead of time!
I love my new scooter! I wasn't sure about it at first. Now though, I love it! It glides a lot farther on one push and goes a lot easier down a slope! I'm having trouble picking up the breaking. It uses the same braking system, but has a wheelie bar too. I keep stepping on that instead of the brake. I know I'll figure it out! No problem!
I'm also wearing my new tennis shoes, which might be part of the problem. I love the shoes (yay I finally found ones that work for me!), but, trying to feel for where the brake is in the new shoes is harder.
Time to head home. I've decided there's no reason to try and catch the earlier bus. I think the bus I'm waiting for today normally gets there a few minutes before that one. I've resigned myself to not being home till 9. That way I won't be as frustrated when I miss the 460.
A regular sized bus pulls up. It throws me. I almost let it pull off without me. I was sure it wouldn't be a 43 bus, they are always double buses. I guess not always! This could work in my favor! If this bus gets full (packed like sardines, even down the aisle) then they don't have to pick up any more people and we might make it down the road faster!
It's funny. Not as many people are getting on as I normally see at this time. The bus isn't getting over full. They were right to send the small bus. I have no idea how they knew though.
We're at Disneyland in time to catch the 460 I like to catch! It leaves in 1 minute. So, there isn't time to cross the street to the Disneyland stop. I'll go down the street to the far stop and make it there in time. Woo Hoo! I'll be home by 8:30!
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)